I AM (11.2008)

I am stepping out of the realm of love, wanting, needing, and searching

Stepping out of the realm of defeat, hatred, heart ache and deceit

I am leaving behind all of that which I’ve known

Leaving behind, the thinking, the wishing, the hoping, the dreams

I am leaving behind the dying, the living, the constructing, the eroding

All of that which I’ve known

The sacredness of peace

The pleasure of pain

The accomplishment of no self gain

The comfort of irritability,

I am opening my eyes

Opening my eyes to the world outside of my mind

Opening my eyes to the struggle inside

Opening my eyes to the useless meaning of compromise

I am stepping out of the realm of sleeping, resting, a vegetative state

I am stepping out of the realm of working, doing, and being

I am leaving behind all of that which I’ve known

Leaving behind the past… the present… the future

I am leaving behind what was…. What is… what will be

All of that which I’ve known

The loudness of silence

The chaos of order

The motion of stillness

The darkness of light

I am opening my eyes

Opening my eyes to the illusion of truth

Opening my eyes to the realness of lies

Opening my eyes to the insanity of life

I am stepping out of the realm of routine, structure, reality

Stepping out of the realm of shame, emptiness, pity

I am leaving behind all that which I’ve known

Leaving behind growing, knowing, caring

I am leaving behind the beauty, the knowledge, the sharing

All of that which I’ve known

The life after death

The loneliness of caress

The poverty of wealth

The sickness of health

I am opening my eyes

Opening my eyes to the reflection of an opaque face

Opening my eyes to everything that is nothing

Opening my eyes to the sedative uproars

I am stepping out of the realm

Leaving behind all of that which I’ve known

 I am opening my eyes

…… opening my eyes…….

…… to ME…

A Piece of Me (11.2008)

There’s a piece of my mind that longs to kiss your intellect

To become a part of you that has yet to be claimed

There’s a part of my soul which longs to intertwine

To conquer your heart and make you mine

There’s a piece of my mind heart and soul that longs to kiss

Kiss every piece of you inside and out

There’s a piece of me that longs to kiss you as a whole

Forever hold on and never let go

Be that part of me that longs to be

Breathe life into me once again

So that I may love once more without an end

Your Eyes (10.2008)

I can't help but to submit to the love flowing from your eyes

The song your eyes sing when I'm away....

Makes me long to dance between your fingers with mine

I can't help but to surrender to the tolerance seeping from your eyes

The words your lips speak......

Makes me long to walk to between your fingers with mine

I can't help but to be addicted to the feeling I get inside from your eyes

The way you touch me emotionally......

Makes me long to dance between you fingers with mine

Your eyes hold the truths of my many stories untold....

Their beauty captured in a frame of love engraved in the thoughts of my heart.......

That speechless gaze which has been bestowed upon me

Consumes my fantasies by day and resides in my dreams by night...

Your eyes with their gaze unknowingly fixed on me put me in a trance...

That makes me long to walk between your fingers with mine

Your eyes have found a way of their own to become synced with my heart...

Our souls are in tune with the rhythm of "IN LOVE"

And makes me long to dance between your fingers with mine....

Your eyes.......

And the way they stare has my heart on the verge of insanity....

The way they claw their way soul deep and root your love deep with in me

Makes me long to walk between your fingers with mine.......

Your eyes and the soft.....mellow way they haunt my mind..

The peacefulness of your gaze has entrapped me in a daze..

Making you and your lovely eyes the only thing I see

Making me long to dance between your fingers with mine....

Your eyes seem to have this power so divine that consumes my mind

Making me long that they had the ability to stop time.......

So I can walk between you fingers..........

Baby I'd take that chance......................................

Just to dance between you fingers with mine

The Hidden Truth (10.2008)

It's a hidden passion that burns deep....
Deep within my soul that slumbers inside of me......
The innocent gazes of these eyes NEVER lie....
But yet behind them a hidden truth lies......

My eyes meet your gaze.........
You gaze into these seemingly sane eyes
But behind them a chaotic destruction lies......
You’re still gazing....
LOOKING..........SERCHING....INCHING......TOWARDS NOWHERE
trying to find yourself in me....
But I am indeed a splitting image of MYSELF, NOT of anyone else
For this is the truth.......
The hidden truth that makes you itch to understand......(but you don't because you can't)
Its the truth that makes you numb to my emotions and diminishes your devotion
It's the truth that names me LOVE
The truth that names you BEAUTY
It's the truth that says......"Love is that which Beauty is not....an inner self portrait....rarely adored by those you care for"
This truth re names my heart PAIN.......and
If you can't feel my PAIN......How do you expect to wipe my tears???
It's the truth that makes me CRY
Please don't take my hand THEN LET IT GO!!!!!!
The truth that makes me WANT.............LOVE.........NEED......
and HATE YOU!!!!!!!

She's Speaking to Me (10.2008)

I laid my head upon her breast to hear her heart beat
And I just stayed there and listen as it seemed to speak to me
The tone of her voice was so placid and sweet
She spoke to me in rhythms that touched my soul deep
She whispered in my ear
Putting me in a perpetual state of paralysis
Her words consumed my mind
Streaming through my thoughts
An attempt to put our polar hearts in a bind
She plucked away at my emotions
Elevating within me a state of unmoving commotion
Releasing a Nile of devotion
That over ruled my first notion……..
To never give in again……
But instead…
I did…..

I laid my head upon her breast to hear her heart beat
And I just stayed there and listened as it seemed to speak to me
The tone of her voice became so adamant and sincere
She spoke to me in rhythms that drew my soul near
She whispered in my ear
Her words flowed through the blood streams of my veins
Deciphering the codes hidden in the caves of my brain
The intention of her words remained the same
As they continued to eradicate the unseen barrier of scars that surrounded my heart
Revising the notes written on my sleeves
She used her intellect as a quill
Her hope as ink
Creating perfection out of my flaws
She created her song
So…….

I laid my head upon her breast to hear her heart beat
And I just stayed there and listened as it seemed to sing to me
The tone of her voice was a harmonious symphony
She sung to me with vocals that moved my soul completely
She hummed in my ear
The theory of the evolution of tranquility
A revolution of the act of bringing out the peace in me
Lifting me into a state of enlightenment
Blocking my dreams from reality so they won’t commence
As the lyrics traveled through me I chose to submit
The authenticity of her meaning engraved itself in my being
Developing the density of expectations
Molding me into nothing less than one of her subtle creations
The deed was done
We became one
As I laid my head upon her breast to hear her heart beat
And just stayed there and listened as it seemed to speak to me
I just laid there and listened as it seemed to sing to me
The tone of her voice was so adamant and sweet
A harmonious symphony
She whispered in my ear……..
She spoke to me in rhythms that touched my soul deep
She hummed in my ear………..
She sung to me with vocals that moved my soul completely

She’s in my mind and she’s speaking to me

The City of Rome (2007)

She’s lost in the city of Rome ……

Wondering the streets without a heart to call home

I sit in the shadows and watch her….

And I wonder if she feels my presence…

I wonder if she knows that she is not alone….

She’s lost in the city of Rome….

Wondering the streets without a heart to call home

She cries in the rain so her tears can blend….

Drenched with tears of agony she keeps her pain suppressed deep within…

And yet she wanders….

And still I sit…

In the shadows and long to touch her soul…

And I wonder if she knows…

I wonder if she knows that I’m here

She’s lost in the city of Rome…

Without a heart to call her own…

She exposes open cuts and bruises to her heart

as she thinks she’s walking alone in the dark…..

In this city of Rome she roams and wonders how much longer she can take being alone…

As she glances at the ruins to her left and right…

I quickly slip out of site as she continues to struggle with her emotional life hidden deep within…

The life to her that isn’t quite right

She’s lost in the city of Rome…

Such a beautiful city created from destruction…

So fragile and frail

But yet it still stands…

She whispers

“How come no one bothered to fix this?

How can someone possibly fix this?”

And I whispered with the wind…

“Because this way you’re beautiful”

She’s lost in the city of Rome

And doesn’t know that she has my heart to call home…

In the shadows I sit and wait…

And I wait until the day she wanders my way….

My biggest flaw is that forever isn’t promised….

But my best eminence is that happiness is guaranteed…

In the shadows I wait and hope that I am what she needs…

She’s lost in the city of Rome….

And I wonder if she knows that she has my heart to call home….

She whispers to herself again

“ How come people continue to destruct and never fix?”

and I whispered with the wind

“Because this way you’re beautiful… This way you’re perfect…

There’s no reason to fix this…. Just reason for me to preserve it with a kiss”

Done With Love (2007)

Torn by what seems to be the choke hold of defeat

My tears can’t seem to fall

Lost in what seems to be a catastrophe

My mind can’t seem to register my effort to give my all

Driven by my hearts insanity

My tears are lost

Driven by the harsh realization of your effortlessness

My soul seems to crumble

Dazed by the complexity of something so simple

My emotions flare

Dazed by what is no longer a dream

My inner person is challenged

It’s a problem that was fixed by not fixing it at all

My pride refuses to make me choose

It’s something that has to be without being at all

My love refuses to let me walk away

Torn by what seems to be the choke hold of defeat

My tears can’t seem to fall

Lost in what seems to be a catastrophe

My mind can’t seem to register my effort to give my all

Prelude to a Thought

Be easy

smoothe

Be cool

Chill and relax

Let loose and kick back

Look around and calm down

It will come to you

Be at peace

Still

Be silent

Stop and listen

Speak without words

Close your eyes and see

And it will come to you

The Story of Another Girl

My gaze is unknowingly fixed upon the perfect silhouette across the room

A room full of guest and yet she releases radiance so attracting as if she were a blossoming may flower.

How can a single soul control so many emotions of a stranger who merely lingers near?

She sits in a chair and watches the rain as it steadily taps the window pane.

She looked over her shoulder and glanced in my direction.

Her face, her body, her presence, Understated Perfection

She motioned for me to come close…. Closer to her

Not knowing who this stranger was, I hesitantly moved across the floor

“I know you- know of you” she said as she looked at me and smiled

Her smile was almost as beautiful as she

Her smooth lips uniquely complimented her white teeth

I stood there in awe, for she was a priceless site to see

“I’ve asked about you plenty of times, and I must admit I’m impressed from what I’ve heard,” She looked me in the eyes as she said this.

Her eyes, brown, deep, pure, Seemed as if they were calling me.

I quickly looked away as I felt myself falling deeper into her

“Your eyes,” she said “they can see, I-I-I feel them searching, watching, looking right through me” She said this apprehensively while the purity of her eyes were trying to read me

My eyes… they were so deceiving that night,

They told her that there was something about me

Something different

Something more than just a possibility

So that night when we crossed paths she decided for herself that she should see

She observed every inch of my being

Looking for a way in

A way to find her part of my existence

But she found nothing more than mere complexity

INTOXICATED STRANGER

I met her in a bar on 9^th street.

She had on a sexy red dress that fit her frame perfectly. She walked through the door and caught my attention instantly. My eyes danced around her frame before they reached her face and noticed her gaze as she began to walk my way

Those brown eyes of hers…. Swiftly took over me… her smile illuminated the room and as she drew closer I turned around blushing… As I noticed the empty stool next to me

She took her place at my side and ordered four drinks

And slid two of them my way

“Take a shot” she said as she winked

I looked at her and smiled and took two at a time

And after a couple more drinks she led me to the dance floor .We stood still as the room danced around the two of us, Swiftly swerving to the rhythm of the tunes from the juke box

She put her arms around my neck and held on to me

And whispered in my ear drunkenly “I’ll hold onto you forever baby”

I pulled her closer and replied with sincerity “Sweetheart tell me this when you’re sober in the morning”

She giggled and swayed and handed me her room key as we made our way to the inn next door.

“Let’s take the elevator, I like to go for rides”

So we staggered through the retracting doors and made our way to the 5^th floor. In the room she laid on the bed so seductively and I peeled each layer of her clothing off one by one with my teeth. We danced in sync with love between the sheets moving with the flow of our blood racing with our heartbeats.

She whispered once more “I’ll hold onto you forever baby”

And I pulled her close to me and replied with sincerity “Sweetheart tell me this when you’re sober in the morning”

She looked at me and giggled and said “I promise I will” with  brown eyes so promising

And when the morning came I was awaken by “Housekeeping”

 Damn!